Behind the Seams: A Whole Lotta Pink!

October 28, 2022

This is maybe one of the most masc-looking outfits I’ve ever posted on here. I’ve been asking my hairdresser to cut my hair progressively shorter and shorter over the last couple years, and every time I get more of it chopped off, I feel queerer, in a really good way. It’s still sometimes a bit of a challenge to feel as femme as I want to when my hair is this short, but makeup helps – and I think that the colorful, bi-as-fuck eyeshadow look I did with this outfit balanced out the rest of it really well.

I wore this to run some errands and then record a bonus episode of The Dildorks (which are all available to $12+ patrons on our Patreon, incase you were wondering!).

 

What I’m wearing:

• “2 gay 2 live, 2 horny 2 die” tank top – made by Cayce Fisher but I can’t seem to find a link to it anymore, sorry!
• Black high-waisted jeans – Madewell
Pink leather Coach Cashin Carry tote (I truly love this bag so you will see it a lot in this post!) – a gift from my love
• Black leather Converse Chuck Taylors
• Apple Watch with red leather strap
• Berry-pink KN95 mask – MaskC


January 28, 2023

I wore this to go with my friends Dan and Sarah to a birthday party we were all invited to. I wanted to dress in the bisexual pride colors (blue, purple, and pink) because both of the people whose birthday it was are bi (I think?) and both of them wear a lot of bright colors, especially purple. Love a themed outfit!

This blue shirt is a bit tricky to style because it’s so low-cut, but I liked the trick of wearing a bralette underneath that gave a little pop of color and a bit of cleavage coverage, because I was just not feeling up to showing that much boob!

 

What I’m wearing:

• Raspberry-pink merino wool cardigan – the Gap
• Blue low-cut tank top – a gift from my friend Sarah
• Deep pink lace bralette – the Gap
• Black skater skirt (with pockets!) – ASOS
• Black leggings – H&M
• My custom Nikes/high-femme clown shoes (more on them in this post)
• My sub’s chastity key on a chain


February 1, 2023

I wore this out to get my hair done. My hairdresser, Paul, has been doing my hair since I was about 12 years old (!!), and he’s a fellow member of the LGBTQ+ community who has wonderful style, so I usually like to dress a little wacky to go see him.

Later that night, my friend/roommate Sarah and I got together for one of our regular get-togethers over drinks. Always fun to sit around chatting with my pal, getting tipsy, catching up on each other’s lives, petting the cats, and (often) watching videos of our mutual favorite video-game YouTuber, QuinBoBin.

 

What I’m wearing:

• Pink knit beanie – Only, via The Bay (I bought the same one in a gorgeous kelly-green shade as well and wore both of them a ton in the winter and early spring)
• Black T-shirt – probably from the Hippo Campus merch store?
• Hot pink cashmere sweater – J. Crew
• Black skater skirt – ASOS
• Black leggings – H&M
• Pink leather Coach Cashin Carry tote
• Pink metallic cowboy boots – Jeffrey Campbell
• My go-to winter coat, a black wool/cashmere-blend Fairweather pea coat that I thrifted in 2007 (!!!) and have worn nearly every winter since then
• Black KN95 mask


February 4, 2023

I wore this to attend a lovely party held by the great Samantha Fraser. who always throws a hell of a bash. This one was summer-themed and had the vibe of a tropical vacation – complete with refreshing cocktails and leis! – and I had a fantastic time catching up with a bunch of people I hadn’t seen in ages.

However, unfortunately then I FAINTED! I was literally mid-conversation with someone and started to feel intensely dizzy and had to excuse myself mid-sentence, which was super embarrassing, and then I collapsed in the kitchen. Not my finest moment. In retrospect, I think it may have been a POTS-related incident (I’m not diagnosed with POTS yet but strongly suspect I have it, and am going to get checked out by a cardiologist soon to verify). Everyone was very nice and understanding about it, and my friends Sarah and Dan came to keep me company in a bedroom upstairs while I waited out the weird disorientation and dizziness, and then took me home. Oh well, at least I had a good time until I fainted!

 

What I’m wearing:

• World’s best jumpsuit – Le Chateau; I had it hemmed because I’m a shorty
• Pink metallic cowboy boots – Jeffrey Campbell
• Red heart-shaped bag – Kate Spade
Blue ukulele earrings – 3DelightfulShop on Etsy


February 11, 2023

I wore this to the Erotic Arts & Crafts Fair, always a fantastic event. Some of the highlights this time were having a custom love poem written for us on the spot by a cool person with a typewriter, picking up another leather bookmark from L’Amour-Propre (I already had one but can always use more), and seeing some previews of the Vibrating Tarot, a sex toy tarot deck that’s in the works.

After getting home from the fair, I stayed in this same outfit to record the video for my song-of-the-week “Billionaire,” which is about Elon Musk and Jeff Bezos and how no one should be allowed to accrue that much money when there is so much needless suffering in this world due to poverty.

 

What I’m wearing:

• Pink knit beanie – Only
• Pink T-shirt featuring a cartoon of a dominatrix holding a whip (apparently the artist is named Etienne) – the gift shop at the Leather Archives & Museum, a must-visit for any kinksters who visit Chicago
Pink cardigan – Beninos
• Black jeans – Madewell
• Pink leather Coach Cashin Carry tote
• Pink metallic cowboy boots – Jeffrey Campbell (they don’t seem to be making the pink ones anymore, unfortunately, but they are making red ones!)
• Teal-blue leather dog collar – Tiffany’s, a gift from my love
• Black KN95 mask because COVID is bad

 

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3 Gorgeous Sex-Related Aesthetics I Admire

All images in this post were assembled using UrStyle

When I think of fetish aesthetics, I think of Bettie Page, and of the SuicideGirls. Although these two cultural phenomena hit their peaks decades apart from one another, I think it’s obvious that the SuicideGirl aesthetic was very much influenced by Bettie Page and other midcentury fetish models, and we also see these influences in aesthetics associated with pro dom(me)s and even with the later mania centering around Fifty Shades of Grey.

Sharp nails, sharp heels, sharp eyeliner wings – these are just some of the elements I associate with this type of look. One of the reasons it feels so transgressive is that women’s style is traditionally “supposed to” be subdued, soft, and conventionally feminine. When we incorporate elements that feel tougher, stronger, and scarier – think Sandy at the end of Grease – it can come across as threatening to traditional Western gender roles and even to Western conceptions of heterosexuality as a whole. For many of us, that transgression is exactly what is so appealing and sexy about this type of look.

Obviously the idea of a “sex worker aesthetic” is a problematic oversimplification, since sex workers are not a monolith by any means; even to break down the category of sex workers further and argue that, for instance, escorts in London have a particular sartorial style would be wrong, because they’re all individual human beings with individual aesthetics.

That being said, there are some stylistic elements that are often associated with sex workers in the popular imagination, whether or not these associations are accurate. Some of these come from Hollywood depictions (think Vivian’s thigh-high black leather boots in Pretty Woman) and some come from actual sex workers (such as the pops of red and pink often found in the looks of MF Akynos, founder of the Black Sex Worker Collective). Leather, leopard print, sky-high heels, and fishnets are just some of the stylistic elements commonly associated with sex workers, though of course one’s outfit selections will depend largely on geographic location, weather, the type(s) of sex work being performed, any safety concerns that may limit style choices (including the likelihood of being targeted by police), the type of clientele one is likely to have, and other such factors.

When I did online sex work of various sorts and was briefly a sugar baby, I enjoyed reflecting on the aesthetic legacies of sex workers, and incorporating elements into my look that I associated with them in order to subtly reference those who came before. Obviously these looks can be incredibly powerful and sexy, and they – like sex work itself – have a fascinating history.

Sundresses have come to be discussed as symbols of sexuality in and of themselves over the past few years; “getting railed in a sundress” has become a widespread idea and many women-attracted and/or femme-attracted people rejoice about the start of “sundress season” each year.

If kinky and sex work-influenced aesthetics are conceptually based around transgression, danger, and perversion, I think there’s a certain variety of sundress sexiness that is more about (the illusion of) innocence, inexperience, and immaturity. I don’t mean the fetishization of actual children, which is of course not okay, but rather the fetishization of a certain play-acted naïveté that is seen as feminine, youthful, and fun, but still quite adult in its manifestation.

The vibe, to my mind, is “getting fucked at a picnic,” or maybe “what if the Garden of Eden was a porn scene.” Pretty ideal aesthetic, if you ask me.

 

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My Everyday Makeup + Skincare Essentials

As much as I love to try new beauty products, a lot of times I just come back to the same ones over and over again. Here are the skincare and makeup items that are in heavy rotation for me right now – some of them I use every single day, and some of them I use closer to once or twice a week, but all of them get used more than anything else in my collection.

 

Skincare

Cleanser: I love the soothing scent and light chemical exfoliation of Mario Badescu Enzyme Cleansing Gel. I also often use Cetaphil and/or CeraVe cleansers when I travel, because they can be found in most drugstores in Canada and the U.S.

Moisturizer: CeraVe moisturizing cream is just the best. So hydrating, so simple, so non-irritating, so affordable (considering that you get a giant tub of it).

Night cream: Mario Badescu seaweed night cream is my favorite for nights when my skin is feeling especially dry and needs some love.

Eye cream: I’m using Biossance eye gel at the moment but am not really in love with it. Still looking for the eye cream of my dreams.

Sunscreen: Coola face sunscreen dries down better than any other one I’ve tried, so I can wear makeup over top if I give it just a few minutes to soak in.

Lip balm: The LaNeige lip sleeping mask is divine.

 

A pretty standard “everyday” makeup look for me

Makeup

Eyebrows: Anastasia Beverly Hills Dipbrow Pomade in “Dark Brown” is one of my all-time favorite makeup products. I’ve been using it for about 9 years, and it is the product that makes me feel more like myself when I apply it. I like the pomade formula rather than an eyebrow pencil because it holds your brows’ shape better and seems to stay put better. (Make sure you get an angled brow brush with a spoolie if you want to try this stuff; use the spoolie to shape your brows and then apply Dipbrow in short strokes with the angled brush.)

Concealer: Maybelline Fit Me liquid concealer has a blendable consistency and buildable medium coverage. I actually prefer it over the pricier NARS concealer I was using before.

Powder: Most days I use either Laura Mercier translucent loose setting powder or Make Up For Ever Ultra HD pressed powder; they both work really well for setting concealer/foundation in place and getting rid of shine.

Blush: I have tried several but Tarte blush in “Natural Beauty” is my favorite one ever. It’s super pigmented but easy to blend, and the color goes well with both red and pink lipsticks. When I want something a bit more subdued, usually I go with MAC Sheertone blush in “Blushbaby,” which a MAC salesperson introduced me to many years ago when I started wearing blush for the very first time.

Eyeliner: MAC Liquidlast liner in “Point Black” is the only one I’ve found that stands up to all the sweating and crying I do. The gloopy texture is a little weird at first but you get used to it.

Lipstick: I have about a zillion of them, but some ride-or-die faves that I wear pretty often are:

 

What are your everyday skincare and/or makeup essentials?

12 Days of Girly Juice 2022: 12 Femme Essentials

Today marks the start of my annual year-end feature, 12 Days of Girly Juice! In the coming weeks, I’ll be writing about my favorite songs, sex toys, books, articles, selfies, events, and sexual encounters of the year – among other things. It’s how I process the events of my year, and the ways I’ve changed over the course of these twelve months.

As is tradition, the first 12 Days of Girly Juice post is about my femme essentials this year – the twelve fashion and beauty items which brightened my days, inspired me aesthetically, and helped me express my inner self to the outer world. In no particular order, here they are.

 

Elemis Pro-Collagen Cleansing Balm. I bought this on the recommendation of a beauty YouTuber named Spencer, who knows his stuff. It’s a slippery, viscous product that you massage into your skin to dissolve all the day’s makeup so it can then be removed. I usually rub this balm into my skin while it’s dry and then add water, which makes its consistency thinner so it can then be gently wiped off with a washcloth or tissue.

There are a couple reasons I love this product, aside from the simple fact that it works. Firstly, it smells so good that it makes me feel like I’ve been transported to a spa – it’s fragranced with eucalyptus, lavender, rose, and chamomile – but there’s also a fragrance-free version for folks who prefer that. Secondly, as someone living with a chronic illness that routinely saps my energy, I appreciate having a super low-effort way to remove my makeup at the end of the day when I’ve already used up most of my spoons and don’t have enough fortitude left in me to wash my face properly. Lazy skincare is valid!!

 

“Love Shack” heart-shaped bag by Kate Spade. I love Kate Spade bags and they’ve showed up on this list before, but this bag is really special. I wanted a small clutch or crossbody bag I could take with me to Matt’s sister’s wedding in September, and as soon as I saw this, I wanted it bad. Fortunately, it was on sale.

It’s definitely not the roomiest bag – it can fit my wallet, phone, keys, gum, and a couple other small things, but can’t handle my Kindle or any notebook larger than pocket-sized. But it gets so many compliments, and brightens up my outfits so much, that I’m okay with it.

 

Laneige Lip Sleeping Mask. This is basically just a really great lip balm. I’m including it because, in another year of Zoom calls and intermittent isolation and working from home – not to mention chronic illness and fatigue – I didn’t always have the wherewithal to put together a flashy look, but fancy skincare products helped me feel beautiful nonetheless.

I got this one as part of my Sephora birthday gift last year but used it way more this year. The subtle berry scent and shea butter-based formula are luxurious and lovely. I’m a fan.

 

Make Up For Ever Ultra HD Microfinishing Pressed Powder. This stuff is aggravatingly expensive, so I only ever buy the mini size – but it’s a must-have for me when I travel. Normally at home, I use a loose setting powder to set my concealer and take care of any shininess in my T-zone, but loose powder just isn’t practical when you’re doing your face in airport bathrooms or on trains or planes!

While it doesn’t come with an applicator (bummer), there is a little mirror inside the compact, which makes it convenient for applying on-the-go. I usually put it on with a Real Techniques brush that I’ve had for years.

 

GXVE matte lipstick in “Original Recipe.” Annoyingly, I discovered this lipstick via a targeted ad on Instagram. What can I say; the algorithm knows my soul.

Gwen Stefani founded makeup company GXVE (pronounced “give”), and as anyone who’s ever seen a No Doubt video can tell you, she knows her way around a red lip. I bought this lipstick thinking it’d become just another red in my collection, but it was actually my favorite lipstick of the entire year! The formula is matte without being drying, and lasts a long time, fading minimally and evenly through meals. The “Original Recipe” shade is a perfect, old-fashioned-yet-totally-timeless true red. I’m pretty picky about my lipsticks, especially red ones, and this one has exceeded my expectations.

 

MAC lip pencil in “Cherry.” Who knows why, but there were long periods of time this year when nothing made me feel more confident and put-together than a precisely-executed red lip. When I bought this lip liner, my lip application process became ritualistic: I would dab on a bit of lipstick in the center of my lips, carefully outline their edges with this just-sharpened pencil, fill in the rest of my lip with the pencil, and then apply more lipstick over top. This method is finicky and may seem excessive, but I’ve found that it helps my lips retain their hue much better for much longer, even if I’m going out for dinner or sipping coffee at my desk all day.

There are times when I prefer a more casual approach to lipstick, quickly slicking on a tinted lip balm before I dash out the door. But for the times when I want to be almost painfully precise about my lip, like Marilyn Monroe prepping for a magazine photoshoot, I always reach for this liner.

 

MAC matte lipstick in “De Vil in the Details.” This lipstick is from the limited-edition line that MAC did in collaboration with the movie Cruella, starring Emma Stone, and I bought it while I was watching that movie, because the beauty looks in it were so fucking good that I felt inspired in a way that felt immediate and urgent.

While there are smart internet commentators out there who have their issues with Cruella for various valid reasons, one thing I know for sure is that its approach to costumes and makeup was bold, playful and glamorous. This lipstick, one of a handful of shades MAC released as an homage to the film, is an orange-leaning red – not my usual jam (I prefer a cool-toned red), but high-quality and surprisingly wearable. There were many times this year when I had to get on a Zoom call or record a podcast and didn’t feel put-together enough to be seen, and quickly applying this lipstick was often enough to change that.

 

Coola organic sunscreen. I’ve been trying to get better about wearing sunscreen on my face and visible tattoos whenever I go out, since it’s apparently one of the most impactful ways to keep your skin looking great into middle age and beyond. I certainly don’t remember to do it every time, but I do my best. And it helps enormously to have a face sunscreen that is neither greasy nor chalky. This Coola one is easily the best I’ve ever tried.

As a femme, I really can’t deal with sunscreens that make it difficult or impossible for me to apply makeup on top of them. Coola has somehow created one that seems to dry down just as well as a good moisturizer, creating a smooth canvas for whatever I choose to apply next. Incredible.

 

Converse black leather Chuck Taylor All-Stars. I had wanted these for yeeeears before deciding to finally spring for them. I always worried they were too androgynous-looking for my high-femme style, but over the past several years I’ve been leaning into more of a “soft-femme” or “casual-femme” vibe, so they’ve actually been a fantastic fit with my existing wardrobe.

Chuck Taylors are such an iconic shoe, instantly recognizable on anyone who wears them, and I love that Converse created a black leather version. To my eye, it looks a little more polished, grown-up and (yep) kinky than the standard shoe. It’s ideal and goes with pretty much every casual outfit!

 

Zatchels rainbow midi satchel. This little black satchel has a rainbow panel on the front that’s assembled from various brightly-hued pieces of leather. The craftsmanship of it is beautiful, and I love its little magnetic faux-buckle closures.

It’s not very roomy either, barely having enough space in it for my Kindle, wallet, earbuds and phone, but it goes with almost any outfit and works just as well for casual coffee shop jaunts as it does for fancy soirées. I love Zatchels!

 

Custom-color Nike Air Force 1 Low sneakers. Another pair of sneakers?! Who am I becoming?!

Nike lets you customize the colorways of some of their shoes, through a cool customization tool that lets you pick various different shades for the laces, vamp, sole, etc. While obsessing over the “lovecore” aesthetic, which focuses on pink, red, and hearts, I decided I wanted a lovecore-lookin’ pair of casual shoes for running errands, going on walks, and so on, so I customized a pair of these low-tops that is aggressively pink and red. I call them my “high-femme clown shoes”!

They’ve been great for walking around the city, or just for jazzing up otherwise boring outfits.

 

Unique Vintage pink & red heart-print cardigan. Speaking of lovecore… In seeking out cozy items with a romantic aesthetic, I kept coming back to this cardigan. It’s long and oversized, in a cute slouchy way, and has pockets! After staring at it during multiple late-night online window-shopping sessions, I finally bit the bullet and bought it.

Since then, it’s usually lived on the back of my desk chair, ready to be draped around me whenever I get chilly while working. But I’ve also incorporated it into countless cozy outfits. It goes so well with a lot of my wardrobe and always makes me feel adorable. I wish the material was higher-quality – it’s a viscose/polyester/nylon blend – but hey, what can ya do.

 

What fashion and beauty items thrilled you most this year?

Behind the Seams: Hearts, Weddings, & Bumblebees

July 3, 2022

My spouse asked me on a long-distance date, wherein we each go to a restaurant in our respective cities and talk on the phone while we eat. I wore this outfit to Blu Ristorante to sip some fancy cocktails and eat some delicious butternut squash ravioli while my love and I caught up about our days.

I had just recently acquired these black leather Chucks after going back and forth on them for a long time. Despite loving the aesthetic of this particular shoe (and owning a similar, dark purple pair back in high school), I was worried they would give me Bad Gender Feelings, as sometimes happens when I wear something that veers a little too far past the borders of my particular femmeness. But I’ve actually worn them so much. They go with pretty much every casual outfit, and – as this one shows – are even suitable for some dressier looks too.

What I’m wearing:
• Navy figure skater dress – American Apparel
Black leather Chuck Taylor All-Star high-top sneakers
• Black leather Coach Station bag – vintage on eBay
• Apple Watch with red leather band from Jewlz4less
• Teal leather Tiffany & Co. dog collar – a gift from my love


July 4, 2022

It’s funny how I thought these shoes would feel too far afield from my femmeness, but then they ended up sort of stretching my femmeness to accommodate them, in a way that I’ve really enjoyed.

While I’m wearing this shirt almost as a tunic or dress in this ensemble, it was sold as a regular unisex tank top by American Apparel when I bought it several years ago; I got two of them (this one and a light teal one) and went up a couple sizes so I could wear them as nightgowns around the house. I’ve rarely worn them out but liked how the colorway looked with these shoes.

I love wearing pearls with more androgynous-leaning outfits like this. They lend a tinge of feminine sweetness to the look, balancing it out.

What I’m wearing:
• 
Slate grey “Lesbian Gay Bisexual Transgender Pride” tank top – American Apparel
• Black leggings – Gap
• Black leather Chuck Taylor All-Star high-top sneakers
• Black leather Coach Station bag – vintage on eBay
• Pearl necklace – gift from my love
• Apple Watch


July 12, 2022

Calvin Klein makes some of my very favorite loungewear; I have practically worn my CK modal nightgowns to shreds at this point. In trying to ascertain whether they made any comfy clothes that were actually meant to be worn outdoors (not that there’s anything wrong with just rocking sleepwear in public), I saw that they had this great modal tank dress. It’s a longer, looser cut than I’d normally feel comfortable wearing, but the fact that it’s black lends it a sort of simple sophistication that I nonetheless enjoy. Incidentally, this dress is now my favorite thing to wear for air travel – over some leggings and under a cashmere cardigan – because it’s so damn comfy.

I wore this outfit to go have drinks at my local pub with an old friend who I used to date. We caught each other up on our lives over a couple pints, and then I sauntered back home in the lingering summer-evening light.

What I’m wearing:
Calvin Klein compact modal tank dress
• Black leather Chuck Taylors
• Pink leather tote – Coach
• Apple Watch
• Blue and black sunglasses – purchased at the hotel gift shop at Woodhull 2017; I wore them a lot to hide my tears while mourning a breakup that happened shortly thereafter, and this was the last time I wore them before they broke and had to be thrown out


July 23, 2022

Another look for getting drinks nearby with an old friend (a different friend this time). It’s hard to put together an outfit that is both amenable to the heat of summertime in Toronto and relatively presentable-looking, so I gave up and wore a bumblebee romper instead.

Kidding aside, I kinda live in MeUndies rompers during the warmer months, both at home and while out and about. They’re incredibly comfy, breathe relatively well, and come in an ever-changing assortment of eccentric prints – ideal.

What I’m wearing:
• Bumblebee-print modal romper – MeUndies (who also, no doubt, made the underwear I was wearing that day – my steadfast dedication to certain brands is a very stubborn-Taurus trait, huh)
• Black leather Chuck Taylors
• Pink leather tote – Coach
• Pink rhinestoned heart necklace – Tarina Tarantino
• Matching KN95 mask – MaskC


August 24, 2022

I wore this outfit in the evening after Matt and I had gotten back from an afternoon spent at the local nude beach, Hanlan’s Point. (If you’re curious, you can read about my experience there in this newsletter essay or hear about it in this Dildorks bonus episode.) When we got home, we showered off all the sand – SO MUCH SAND – and then rested and hydrated for a bit before getting dressed for dinner.

We went over to El Rey, a fantastic Mexican restaurant/mezcal bar in downtown Toronto, for margaritas, tacos, etc. Their patio was super chill and everything we ate and drank was excellent; would recommend.

What I’m wearing:
• Pink and white striped linen shirt, tied into a bow in the front – Old Navy
• White tank top underneath (unseen) – a gift from the brand #LubeLife
• Blue pencil skirt – bought from ASOS several years ago and subsequently tailored to fit me better
• Black prescription sunglasses – Zenni (I love these and kinda want to wear them all the time)
• Pink leather tote bag – Coach
• Black leather Frye harness boots


September 18, 2022

While visiting New York for a couple weeks, I wore this to go have brunch with my friend Brent on a patio in the Queens neighborhood he’d recently moved to. It turned out that the restaurant had a policy where every entree optionally came with a free drink (mimosa, bellini, etc.), which we had in addition to some fruity frozen cocktails we spotted on the menu… so, needless to say, our brunch got a bit boozier than anticipated, but for me and Brent, that mostly just means we talk about sex more and make more puns.

My spouse bought me these jeans several months ago and, while I love their flattering high-rise cut and they’re probably my favorite jeans I’ve ever owned, I haven’t been able to bring myself to buy another pair for my collection (maybe in a navy), because they cost $128 and I wear jeans so seldom that that seems steep. But I will probably wear these until they’re falling apart.

What I’m wearing:
• Red T-shirt featuring a fun illustration of the Hitachi Magic WandPen & Kink
Black high-rise vintage-wash jeans – Madewell
• Black leather Frye harness boots
• Red rhinestoned heart necklace – Tarina Tarantino
• Red heart-shaped leather bag – Kate Spade (isn’t it the best?!)


September 23, 2022

My lovely spouse had been asked to officiate their sister’s wedding, so we took the train to Philadelphia for the weekend and stayed in a hotel there while joining in the festivities.

Matt’s suit, custom-made for the wedding (which you’ll see below), was burgundy, and we’d decided (as we often do) to coordinate our outfits. I saw this vintage Betsey Johnson dress in my size on eBay and impulsively snapped it up, knowing I probably wanted to wear navy to the wedding instead but imagining that this red dress could be my backup. I ended up wearing it to the wedding rehearsal and then the rehearsal dinner, which is where we were headed when these photos were taken.

It was a lovely, crisp day, the rehearsal went beautifully, and the food and drinks at the rehearsal dinner were as delightful as the company. When my fibro fatigue caught up with me, I said my goodnights and slipped away to take a hot bath in our hotel room by myself – at which point I read the last few chapters of Carrie Soto is Back and wept so hard at the book’s beauty that I think I freaked out my spouse for a sec when they arrived and saw my teary face!

What I’m wearing:
• 
Red brocade dress – vintage Betsey Johnson, bought on eBay
Cropped red cardigan – Urban CoCo
• Opaque navy tights
• Red leather heart-shaped bag – Kate Spade
• Black heels – some random company on Amazon; bought as part of my Bettie Page costume for Halloween a year or two ago


September 24, 2022

Here’s what I wore for the actual wedding, which was wonderful, emotional and sweet. After having a transcendent brunch, just the two of us, at The Love, we got all dolled up in our hotel room and then caught a shuttle to the venue, where photographs were taken for a while before the event itself started.

Matt let me help them choose some of the accoutrements they wore with this stunning suit; my main contributions were finding the pocket square they went with (it’s barely visible here but had a vivid red-and-blue abstract floral pattern) and picking a shade of lipstick that matched their suit almost exactly. It was “Velvet Jazz” by Lisa Eldridge, and we each bought a tube and both wore it to the wedding. Cute.

What I’m wearing:
• Navy sequinned dress – Le Chateau (I had wondered if it was a tad bit too sexy or flashy for a wedding but I think it ended up being fine)
Cropped red cardigan – Urban CoCo
• Opaque navy tights
• Red leather heart-shaped bag – Kate Spade
• Black leather heels – Amazon
• Red rose hair accessory – Amazon
• Red rhinestoned heart necklace – Tarina Tarantino
False lashes – Sugarpill