Things that happen in my fantasies about giving blowjobs:
- effortless deep-throating
- that thick and messy type of spit
- a constant flow of half-moaned praise
- getting absurdly turned on
Things that can happen when you give a blowjob for real:
- gagging
- too much teeth
- searing jaw pain
- too much eye contact
- questioning whether you ever even knew how to give a blowjob in the first place
- getting absurdly turned on anyway
Things that happen in my fantasies about receiving oral sex:
- deeply focused attention
- mastery of clitoral anatomy
- both of us moaning
- plenty of pleasure always
Things that can happen when you receive oral sex for real:
- dissociation
- worries about hygiene
- worries about taking too long
- plenty of pleasure anyway
Things that happen in my fantasies about PIV:
- force
- depth
- animalistic grunting
- coming, always
Things that can happen when you have PIV for real:
- erratic rhythms
- clitoral abandonment
- thinking about your to-do list
- coming, occasionally
Things that happen in my fantasies about kissing:
- profound passion
- perfectly-timed groping
- an explosion of figurative fireworks
- a lot of intimacy
Things that can happen when you kiss for real:
- overzealous tongue stuff
- overzealous teeth stuff
- not knowing what to do with your hands
- nonetheless: a lot of intimacy
Things that happen in my fantasies about love:
- permanence
- safety
- desperate confessions
- the sense that it’s all you’ve ever wanted
Things that can happen when you love for real:
- heartbreak
- vulnerability
- miscommunication
- somehow, still, the sense that it’s all you’ve ever wanted